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Shape of You

This song is simple. Sex. Sex & more Sex. Have you ever wanted something so much and for so long that you stared at it until it was all you could see? You know every inch. Every curve. Every subtle, smooth form... Well, that's this song.

I do. I think about the shape of you
And I do. I think about touching you
You drive the need and the flames do rise
While I do... I think about touchin' you

And your eyes, they shelter me
And I can give you what you need

(chorus)
I want to melt your body into me
Spill you all over my humanity
I want to burn your image into me
Until the shape of you is all I see

I do, think about the shape of you
And I do think about the back of your neck
I know the curve of your waste
And my hands will learn who you are

(chorus out)

I do, think about the shape of you
And dream. I dream about the flavor of your skin
And I know the curve of your waste
You know the shape of you... yeah.

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21st Century Freak

This song is about Mr. Hyde. I have no idea where this came from, but I had a daydream. The dream was in first person. I was Mr. Hyde... the moon was out and I was in full prowl. I was running through downtown and passing all of these lost teens, homeless and hopeless, looking for a thrill of any kind and I was more than happy to oblige. A little wrestling, some biting and a generous spilling of blood and the day dream was over and I had a song.

Wind will blow, catch the smell of mental anarchy
Urchin goth rats, underground... through the cracks they bleed

This and every night is the oxygen in my veins

(chorus)
Alive in the street 21st Century Freak, I wanna meet you
You can never take me, I can never break
By the moon and its light, my allagorical flight, man in the street you fear
You can never take me, I can never break

In and through it, welcome to it... (my) mental anarchy
Less than zero, lower than nothing... through the cracks they bleed

This and every night is the oxygen in my veins

(chorus)
Alive in the street 21st Century Freak, I wanna meet you
You can never take me, I can never break
By the moon and its light, my allagorical flight, man in the street you fear
You can never take me, I can never break

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On me on you

Lyrics by Trina Rose

How you persist (to be)
On me on you
I can’t resist (I wanna be)
on me on you

I feel your breath caress my skin
On me on you
Could you touch me like that again
On me on you

Your legs pull me in so tight
On me on you
Your body’s rubbing me just right
On me on you

I feel you deeper than I knew
Inside me on you
Just don’t stop doing what you do
Inside me on you

A little more then I might scream
With me on you
It's more than real or just a dream
On me on you

Senses are electrified
With me on you
The more I get the more I drive
Me into you

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Stop Shrinking Me

This is all personal and it's all how I think and what I feel.

this song has explicit lyrics

This is the shit that I've been going through
The shit I think and the shit I do

Why can't I have a real life
My brain won't work that way
Why can't I fly in a car
I wanna learn to play guitar

Why can't I be a fish
I'd like to live in the sea
Why can't I hold a job
Don't know what I want to be

At seventeen I took a blade to my wrist (stop shrinking me)
The old man had busy fist (stop shrinking me)
I didn't get enough love as a child (stop shrinking me)
Maybe that's why I'm wreckless and wild (stop shrinking me)

This is the shit that we've been going through
The shit we think and the shit we do

Whny can't I be young again
I was good at being seven
I can't remember anything
I have no fear of heaven

Time is just the second hand
It's no match for Peter Pan
I'm growing old inefficiently
Time peels away the layers, nothing left but the kid in me

At 21 I put pills down my throat (stop shrinking me)
Don't promise me shit, I read what you wrote (stop shrinking me)
The world would be better if (bleep) was dead (stop shrinking me)
And you (bleep) up TV priest, with dollars on your heads (stop shrinking me)
I lie about my pain and I self medicate (stop shrinking me)
I think a victory in war is a victory in hate (stop shrinking me)
I've been watching you paint with a prejudice brush (stop shrinking me)
I've been watching you use the cross as a crutch (stop shrinking me)

I don't judge (bleep) who judge too much
I have fantasies of (bleep) Cheney and Bush
I'm proud to have ended a cycle of abuse
Though I can't believe I got here without my (bleep) in a noose
I say what I feel and my opinion is blunt
Like how I hate (bleep). She's a bigot and a (bleep)
My family is my life, they keep me grounded
I want to leave the world better than I found it

Stop shrinking me

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Dust

This is a song about my brother's battle with cancer, a battle he lost in August of 2009. It was the first song written on this CD and it defined my attitude in the studio. Just like when you fight cancer, I would imagine, I was as resourceful and creative as I could be. This steam-rolled into some even more unconventional decisions on other songs. I'll miss my brother, but his incredible attitude and courage in the face of death has left it's footprint on my soul... and in this song.

Dust in my hair and in my eye
Faces I remember to my right
Unbroken stare and killer stride
Today's a good day to die

One moment of reflex, one moment your body goes down
You pull the trigger, things move but you hear no sound

God is it over?
(live or die, it's just a matter of time, you get one chance, take it. It's all about the reflex)
There is no fear in knowing
God is it over?
(live or die, it's just a matter of time, you get one chance, take it. It's all about the reflex)
But there is fear in going

Dust in the blush of a western sky
With an iron will and unshakable pride

One moment of reflex, one moment your body goes down
You pull the trigger, things move but you hear no sound

God is it over?
(live or die, it's just a matter of time, you get one chance, take it. It's all about the reflex)
There is no fear in knowing
God is it over?
(live or die, it's just a matter of time, you get one chance, take it. It's all about the reflex)
But there is fear in going

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Indigo

This is fun... have you ever seen the movie "Cousins". This is the two main characters story as best I could tell it and with my own personal feelings and interpretations of their most pure but forbidden affair.

Hold on to now. So tightly... Now is everything.
They'll want to know, precisely where we have been
So here we go, living our new lie in stereo, Indigo

We are one, inseparable, in time and space
Together now in the afterglow of this time and place
So here we go, living our new lie in stereo, Indigo

Put a light on me. Put a light on you
They'll question everything we do
So remember what I'm telling you
When the interrogator touches you

Our eyes are open widely... to everything
We learn to touch and leave no trace, outside the ring
So here we go, living our new lie in stereo, Indigo

Put a light on you, put a light on me
They'll question everything they see
So remember where I need you to be
When the interrogator sets you free

We melt our minds like our bodies, to one end
We felt the kind of connection you want to feel again
So here we go, living our new lie in stereo, Indigo

Put a light on me. Put a light on you
They'll question everything we do
So remember what I'm telling you
When the interrogator comes for you

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The Alien

I often feel like no one gets me and that I don't have the social skills or general social abilities required to get through life. I imagine others feel that way too... at least I hope they do. These are lyrics that outline how I dealt with that uncertainty.

Find your box, crawl inside
Stay in your place and hide
We will have remote control
We decide what the future holds

Don't break apart inside
Don't break apart inside

What is the matter when
No one wants the alien
Rise above this mortal skin
And let your life begin

Don't break apart inside
Don't break apart inside

Smile for the Camera

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Let The Hammer Fall

I have held 53 jobs since high school. I excelled at all of them. I loved them all for a week and hated them all eventually. All, that is, except web development and music. These lyrics I have lived 53 times. What I'm saying is, the song wrote itself.

You find your box on the virtual side
Stay in your place, yeah you keep it inside
You stay alive

You whisper softly "we are listening to you"
You do your job, yeah you do it to make it through

So let the hammer fall
The parting of it all and for all to see
So helpless we chase time but not for long
The moment is what the moment gives
We carry on

This is my voice and now this is my time
This is my choice I say to hell with the crime
I stay alive

I take your face out of my movie, you are
You are deleted. I have taken your lines and frame by frame
I find my name

So let the hammer fall
The parting of it all and for all to see
So helpless we chase time but not for long
The moment is what the moment gives
We carry on

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Between the Lines

Like this website says, Speck 5 is about personal and passionate views... these are some of those views. All mine, all passionately held.

Between the lines of what I want and what I think I need
You may find, I do exchange neccessity for greed

Between the lines of what I heard and what I think you said
You may find your good intentions left for dead

Between the lines of what I know and what I think I believe
You may find I champion doubt and humility

I begin and I pretend I understand what I loose or find
In the end my only friends; democracy, humility and shit between the lines

Between the lines of living in the moment or the grand design
You may find your story written, not at once, but line by line

I begin and I pretend I understand what I loose or find
In the end my only friends; democracy, humility and shit between the lines

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12th Hour

Lyrics by Trina Rose

8 hours later, the tears are still coming
I didn't know it would hurt that bad
I never had a time in my life when
Loving somebody took all that I had

9 hours later and I still question
All of the decisions I made
I know deep down that this had to happen
But that doesn't take away from the pain

(Chorus)
My heart begs for reprieve
My body aches and I just want to sleep
My head pleads to forget
This broken heart left for dead

10 hours later I need an angel to catch me
Feels like I'm falling into an abyss
Somebody keep me from self-destructing
And convince me, it's not worth all this

11 hours, and I still love you
I'll never understand why that's not enough
I'm gonna miss your kiss and your touch too
How do I survive this misguided love

(Chorus)

12 hours now and my voice won't stop shaking
So I hang my heart up to wither away
Never love again, my lonely heart councils
Will I be alone the rest of my days

(Chorus)

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I See Monsters

I remember moments of my childhood. I wrote a song about it. The etherial escapes in this song that open into swimming pool sounds and children playing... well, I would check out of bad moments as a child and escape to somewhere. This song was hard to write. But the best therapy is hard.

I see monsters everywhere
One is darkening my doorway
This is fear beyond repair
And I wish this was not my story

Another night in my bedroom
Well I don't know, but shouldn't I feel safe in here?
Instead I lie awake and stare (listening)
The doorknob moves, I close my eyes and I disappear

In the desk by the big window
Second drawer, the monster keeps a gun in there
And my mother gets it, too
For pretending not to hear what I know she hears

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